Working for 2 years for different organisations and being a failed entrepreneur, I knew there was a missing link in my life. I immediately took 6 months sabbatical and made up my mind to not think about any career option or the job opportunities that I should be seeking. I decided to devote my whole journey to my own self. Reading, painting and meditation were the 3 things I signed for; for 6 months, that I was investing on myself, were supposed to help me clear my mind and give me strength to build on for the way ahead. And so did I say goodbye to Hyderabad. I vividly remember my last visit to Karachi Bakery and how emotionally unstable and crazy I was to announce it to my parents that I am done with things being so haphazard.

"When you know better you do better" - Maya Angelou.

I knew that what I am stepping into was the way out of the maze. I landed in Udaipur and the journey began. I remember 8 months after the day I visited Karachi Bakery, I was on my house' terrace sipping my cup of tea and I received a call whether I want to complete my form of Fellowship or did I drop the idea. I didn't even remember when did I last see the form/website. That night I did fill up the form and went through all the formalities. It is usually hard to convince your parents for such a thing. Being a Rebel was always easy. But this time I wanted to own my decision and wanted agreement.

Why is it required? How will it be useful to you? What are we going to say to the people around? These were some basic queries with a huge lot of melodrama. And I remember sitting for my interview across Mukesh Shekhawat answering- why do I want to be a fellow? Will I be able to cope up with what takes to be a fellow? I never realised the intensity of the question until now and as of now 1 year more to go. Fellowship was a very calm journey for me. It came easy and was extremely simple. With the urge to learn and grow I tried to be my own self and kept hundred percent transparency. That is the key. I did see my reflection in that water. I did go deep to understand my patterns and hence digging the true self. With a strong belief in "We are born for a purpose", I did try and immerse with people and process. Fellowship has taught me how the answer lies within. We struggle in finding solutions, we blame others for a particular situation, we waste all our energy and time to understand others, but the core of every situation is YOU. OTHERS are nothing/no one but a reflection of your own thoughts.

We talk about Fellowship as a model of producing leaders but Fellowship was nothing but a journey to explore self. I don't wish to be a leader! I just wish to be a better version of myself each day. With every classroom transaction and every school visit, rigour and excellence is being polished. You strike each day with a plan in hand and strive to be the best each day. Not a competition. The black board, The White Walls, kids dressed in Blue. Each day you strive hard to demonstrate rigour, commitment, knowledge, skills; they call it role modelling. Each day you plan and plan till you exhaust. Each day you refine and reflect. You walk in chaos but still unwavered. You are mindful. You are you.